At the bottom of the hill, ruins
stretch away into the distance, clay brick foundations of homes and other
structures long since abandoned because of an adverse climate perhaps, or
invading hordes. You have to ask the archeologists if you want the full
picture, or read the literature the archeologists have left in their wake,
literature which is, nonetheless, difficult to get your hands on, if only
because your hands tend always to be in your pockets. I like the layout of the
place, recall it later and describe it to friends who have little chance of
visiting themselves because their lives are centered around careers that do not
leave one time to appreciate that which is not somehow tied up with dividends
and miniature calendars printed on card stock. Immanuel stops long enough for a
photograph at a place where a stream once meandered through and the monkeys
gathered in the trees to bark at one another and throw seed pods in a relatively
complicated way that suggested, to some observers at least – those with a
particular interest in passing on colorful anecdotes while simultaneously
suppressing all evidence that went counter to their own deepest religious beliefs
-- a rudimentary form of gambling. Immanuel laments the loss of such creatures,
the ominous silence now where before there had been sound. Or something very
like sound even if there was no one present to register it. I get the feeling
sometimes that Immanuel doesn’t recognize me anymore. Oh sure, there is the
little matter of his saying my name out loud at such regular intervals, it
threatens to drive me insane, but that seems more of a bad habit than anything
else. It is the look in his eyes I am referring to, a strange gray fixity I’ve
seen only once previously, on a man who I didn’t know but who insisted on
following me around when I was trying to buy soapstone for carving at a market
upriver. His hands were mottled and his liver diseased and I was only able to
escape him finally by pointing out a black condor making enormous ovals in the
sky. I told the man to pray for it because it was obviously lost and required,
at the very least, some manner of divine intervention. For his part, Immanuel
has earned the right to look past and through anyone he encounters, even
someone like me who has traipsed along beside him lo, these many months.
Slogged through the same inundated fields. Endeavored to treat the same
ailments with iodine and zinc.
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