Lately we see machines returned to objects of utility. They have
wandered off the list of accepted tropes. Eulalie invents a name for the
phenomenon but questions its validity almost immediately, answering her as yet
non-existent critics with a kind of nodding and shuffling that takes its cue primarily
from deep-water crabs washed up on distant black sand beaches every January.
Out of sight, though, late at night when the moon is scratching at the windows,
she sticks pins into figures she has fashioned with bits of canvas left over
from the outfitting of enormous airships and strewn mysteriously along the
roadside for about twenty miles. She says words over them that she knows mean
nothing whatsoever, that don’t have so much as the mathematical threat of
influenza associated with them. But she continues for at least half an hour until
I threaten to leave. It’s at moments like this that I begin to wonder what the
point of our interaction, if you can call it that, is. I mean, where are her
earlobes and how does one delay the overwhelming desire to perform in civic rituals
and masques without consequently destroying the part of one’s self that believes
rituals and masques are so similar they ought not to have separate appellations?
Eulalie tampers with the edge of each page until it is no longer recognizable
as an edge; it looks more like a portal of some sort, a subtly graded
demarcation that you don’t know you are entering until it is too late, and I
think this is intentional on her part because no sooner has she finished than
she is inviting me again to read to her out loud from what is written there,
the fairy tales and the lengthy annotations hand-written in indigo ink, the
reports from the neighboring portions of the continent where they are preparing
for yet another conflict by sharpening their hand axes and their very long sticks
and they are practicing their military drills which consist mostly, as near as
I can tell, of walking around in circles with their hand axes and their very long
sticks displayed prominently at their sides or held up proudly and
provocatively in the air so that the entire mob begins to look like the
glistening surface of an enormous passing porcupine. Of course, this being a
marshal occasion of some standing, it is imperative that their favorite anthems
be on their lips for the duration, and the difficulty arises when it turns out each
individual in the procession has his own particular favorite when it comes to
things like anthems, a favorite which he adheres to and has spent countless
hours memorizing. The resulting cacophony reminds you of those nightmares in
which you are sliding down an icy mountain slope toward certain annihilation
and the geese are flying by overhead. In your nightmare, the geese know the
language, though they speak it with a marked accent, and their commentary is
much too wry for most of the other people in your dream to accept. They label
it out-and-out cruelty and have such a hard time forgiving the birds for what
they’ve said about you (long since you have crashed to earth and are either dead
or resurrected), they refuse to speak of the incident even with their closest
friends or spouses. They spit on the floor instead as shorthand. They try
desperately to keep their head and shoulders, their entire bodies really, from
spasming uncontrollably with the memory of it, but they fail. You suspect the
entire population will turn, eventually, to medication and they will hold you
partially or even wholly to blame. They will have forgotten all about the role
of the geese in the situation by then. Some of them will even have taken their
children to the pond located in the cemetery where you have been buried (if, in
fact, you were not resurrected, something most in your entourage secretly believed
would be the case) in order to feed the geese wadded up pieces of bread.
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