Irrational parameters are still
parameters, are still to be respected so long as they run perpendicular to one
another and don’t cause us to reminisce about barns and outbuildings in and
around which we first inhaled the smoke from imported Turkish cigarettes and
learned the melody to songs that weren’t overly laden with melody, that mostly
just plodded from one place to another and back again like what one imagines
mastodons did when they were still prevalent on the continent. Our turn will
likely come soon, third or fourth, but it feels as if we are standing in line
for more than an hour and when we check our watches, that suspicion is
confirmed. Immanuel plucks his from his arm, hurls it in the direction of the
people he takes to be in charge, but as is frequently the case, we can’t
determine this for sure because we have no way of discussing it with them.
Short of sign language, of course. Short of saying something out loud. Immanuel
complains that the sun makes its way down the brainstem and into his throat,
passes clean through using some metaphysical trick he tries to explain while tapping
mechanically, unconsciously, the tips of the fingers on his left hand over and
over again. I can’t understand the niceties of it all, can’t even determine,
frankly, why such explanation is necessary. I’ll believe just about anything he
says. The consequences are mostly minor and have to do with the skin, the way
the skin regenerates itself more slowly as you age. We like to draw parallels
with the coatings to be found on the exterior of other objects, like coconuts
or plastic buckets. But we reject out of hand any attempt to repeat the
procedure using things that don’t actually exist. Or if they do exist, they do
so only in the underdeveloped provinces of the mind. Conceptual things, things
made up of words and perfectly straight lines that we can then mould and
manipulate as we see fit, we can re-arrange and ultimately tear down again into
innumerable pieces, all while trying to keep the look on our faces from appearing
pained. If we succeed, no one knows what we are up to, but the sense of
accomplishment that rushes over us at that moment doesn’t last very long. It
dissipates, dribbles away to nothing and before we know it, our surroundings
adopt their customary demeanor. Certainly there are dangers close by – the
rumor of lynx, never substantiated. People wearing hats made of wool. But we
come to grips with these things almost immediately. It is as if they were the
medium within which we have been steeped since the day someone decided it’s best
we do not emerge into a void. We should be offered clarity and context as
something of a birthright -- by summoning into miraculous existence a frame (or
stage, depending on where you’re standing) the width of the sky but not as deep
and not as tall. There needed to be concessions, after all. A way of confirming
we have the resolve, but not the resources, not the bond measures or the people
respectable enough to propose them. What we have instead are those (like
ourselves) who pass most of the day harmlessly in their cubicles. With their striped
ties and their faux snake leather shoes and their miniature joke abacuses on
their desks and the instruction manuals for the abacuses, most of these opened ominously
to the same page, the very difficult to grasp page seventy-three devoid of
illustration and, with it, any sense of something legitimately human taking
place.
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