Concealing
yourself inside the barrel is preferable to tottering down the mountain pass in
hushpuppies, your vision altered permanently for the worse by the angle of the
sunlight and your tendency to rub your knuckles into your eyelids before they
are completely closed. My jacket, in the meantime, makes claims across the
back, sports letters placed there in complete sentences with a steady hand and
a warm iron or a great deal of gold thread, but I can’t remember who might have
alerted me to this fact initially. It could have been the man who used to live
above me and who was forever sailing paper airplanes down onto the heads of passersby
and whistling bits of Iolanthe in
such a way you got the distinct feeling he believed he had somehow invented them,
he had pulled the tunes out of the convoluted matter inside his skull. When I
would quiz him on the particulars, he stated that he didn’t believe in free
will. In fact he didn’t believe in will at all, but rather a force very like it
with the difference being this force (for which he was still hoping to find a
suitable moniker) affected nothing but itself. It inflated itself and sketched
itself in a mirror on a regular basis and every now and then it would transform
as if by magic and proper planning both into its exact opposite, much the way certain
microscopic life forms can, when necessary, turn themselves completely inside
out. So as to escape predators, I suppose. Or demonstrate their superior
flexibility to those other life forms that just happen to occupy the water
column next to them and that can’t really see what’s going on because they
haven’t developed rudimentary eyes yet. This means the entire enterprise is
wasted on them, but not on us. Maybe -- I used to say to him when I wished to
cause a scene or simply to exercise the tendons in my jaw because my jaw was
sore at the time and prone to lock up on me and cause unbearable pain,
something which I, of course, wished to avoid through these preventive calisthenics
-- maybe the movements we witness are random, while at the same time they are intended
somehow to illustrate and confirm that all random movements are not the same. Some
of them carry with them a definitive meaning, a theme, much the way horsemen tend
to carry blankets around with them even when they are not riding a horse. This
is especially true in those desert communities you can find just south of here
where travelling by foot is seen as a badge of great honor because the
distances to be covered are so enormous, and the time for covering them has all
but come and gone.
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