Some evenings, the moon changing
colors rapidly as if possessing human moods and aesthetic sense, as if it has a
message to send and is anxious to send it, Eulalie throws her arms out serpentine-fashion
in front of her body, her back arched at an angle to make one cringe, and the
effect is one perhaps you have witnessed before. In the service, say, far from
home, your mind occupied with miniature glass bottles and what can be
transported from one place to another in them. Your eyes mere shadows of their
former selves, though these shadows seem somehow more expressive than their
originals if only because what isn’t there of necessity makes comment upon what
is. Eulalie conjectures the monk has replaced one form of worship for another,
exchanged a less relevant deity for one that occupies a body and so walks
around on two feet and glows a certain way when harried, another when aroused.
And the two are not as far apart as one might assume. To the monk’s delight
and surprise, he finds Kia returns
everything directed toward her sevenfold like a the disc at the heart of a
laser, the birds that mimic human speech, as well as any other sound in the
environment. The clicks and flurry from the shutter of a camera, foghorns on the
barges coming in. Eulalie loves the rehearsing, the hashing out of what occurs
in Kia’s bedroom where the mirror captures the lines in his face in such
immediate detail, the monk is startled almost into silence upon first turning
toward it, the simulacra there witness to some other man who shares his name
and habits, whose desires now are so mighty they show in the flesh and the
lips, the angle at which the mouth attempts to escape itself, but that is where
the similarity ends. Imagine if you were to stumble upon a scrap of information,
a paragraph journal entry, say, penned by someone you didn’t know, found it
torn, isolated from the book within which it was originally set down, and now
it has come to rest on the pavement of the alley between the building where you
live and the building where other people live but they don’t seem to have any
windows. Or if they do, these windows are on the other side of the building where
you can not see them. Your first reaction, of course, is to scan the text briefly,
to try to find some sense of whether or not it will be worth your while to have
at it more thoroughly, to draw from it an idea of who might have written these
things down and why. The careful delineation and naming of past geological
epochs. The oblique references to placing one’s hands on the body of another.
The countdowns and the secret codes composed of letters and strange symbols and
entirely unfamiliar pictograms. After a few moments of studying all of this, you
are likely to become convinced that what you have discovered is the key to
unraveling a great many mysteries pertaining to your own existence, but you
don’t know yet what these mysteries consist of nor exactly how the key functions.
Best to take care of it, then, until such time as you can decipher it. Best to
place it in a glass frame and that frame in a trunk hidden away in the closet
where no one can get his hands on it and ruin everything by crumpling it up in his
fingers, say. By asking you over and over again what certain of the words on it
– multisyllabic words mostly, scrawled on the paper in a child’s, or maybe a
lunatic’s, unsteady hand -- mean.
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