Later, the pieces of flesh have
been put back where they started. The centering gives way to shifting from one
foot to another and then the sky recedes like memory. I stand at the other end
of the table, certain the objects laid out between us are meant to suggest
something in the aggregate, to add up to a message like that one finds
sometimes in a book pulled from the shelves at random in the library. Something
scribbled in the margins, a statement or a question that addresses a need one
has without ever before realizing it. That conjures it out of mid-air simply by
stating that need in sentences half Gaelic and half English. Or fragments, it
doesn’t matter. A high-toned whistling continues somewhere far off and makes us
think of the inner workings of machines that haven’t been invented yet, that
divide the air from the particles in the air and separates them out into a
hundred different varieties, all for the purpose of reassembling them again at
a later date and placing them in bottles with hand-written labels. I, for one,
am sick at heart and ready to follow the game trail through the forest until it
comes to a clearing and then see for myself what sort of structures have been
built there, examine them carefully by the light of a torch. Most of these will
have crumbled, ravaged by time and picked over by those in need of supplies. I
imagine rooms one must climb by hand to reach and in the corners of these (assuming
there are corners still) a child’s drawing of the family on yellowed paper. It
looks strangely familiar, as if generated from my own past, but I know the past
is something that doesn’t generate, that doesn’t so much as twitch the skin
under its eyes. We have an hour to make it to the next destination and her
panting suggests we will need that much and more, but still, I linger. I
address people who are no longer among us, who have stepped off the platform
and plunged down toward whatever lies beneath the platform without making much
of a sound. Sometimes you could hear a whimpering, or a noise very like
whimpering without the excess fear attached. I mistook it usually for
commentary made by the wild creatures that occupied the adjacent hillside. The hares
and the goats and the marmots mostly, those diminutive things that glanced disdainfully
at us out of the corners of their eyes.
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